Monday, October 29, 2007

More questions ...

Are most of us destined to go through utter and total shit before we can attain what's most important to us? Or is it that the things that are toughest to attain end up feeling like the most important just coz they're unattainable?

Do you realize that you can only have somebody's heart and soul if you welcome their sadness just as much as you love their happiness? I hope you understand that when you didn't hear about their pain, it wasn't coz the pain wasn't there, it was coz YOU weren't really there ...

Does karma work within specific spheres of life - like if I help you progress in your career, it'll come back to me only as progress in mine, or could it possibly come back in any other form? Is there even Karma or am I deluding myself? (Though like S once told me, knowing it doesn't exist wouldn't in any way change who we are and what we do, I do hope that's true)

Deciding not to feel angry at someone takes a whole lot of will power. It took less will to stay up nights and study while fighting the monster called sleep, less will than to put up with inanity and malice with tolerance. How does one let go and not let anger find its target? Does the balloon trick really work?

At the end of the day, all said and done, all ties and relations considered, we come alone and go alone right? Then why is it that the things we get most worked up about are related to the people in our lives? Love, death, happiness, illness, pride and jealousy and their kin ...

With the 7 basic notes and their high and lower pitch variants put together, would you have imagined there's enough permutations and combinations to make unrepetitive music for eons to come? So when you and I are born again, not only can we hear Rafi, the Beatles and Pink Floyd, there'll be a gazillion other tunes to keep the mind dazed and ecstatic. Imagine :D Can't wait to be born again, can ya? Join the club! :-)

If you knew this was the last day of your life, what would you do? Who would you call? Apologies, expressions of love unexpressed before, confessions to clear your conscience, new places to visit, old friends to catch up with ... what else would be on the list? Why then are you on that couch watching TV and pushing the little gnawing to do's inside your mind further back into your mind, when you could be LIVING your life right now, exactly the way u'd always dreamt, with the people you'd dreamt you'd live it with? What on earth is important enough to be holding you back?

Why, why, why am I such a curious child, Dear God? Do you realize there's people I've driven up the wall with this habit? People I've driven away? People I'd have liked to have in my life but couldn't hold to my thread of questioning? Did you have a plan with this way you made me? Now's your chance to reveal it, if ever. I'm waiting for the proverbial 'light', kindly note.

13 comments:

Quirky Quill said...

:)I like this one.
My take:There's the micro in life-breakfast, work discussions, light not working, coffee break, party, groceries and there's the macro-purpose in life, philosophy, ideals,your legacy etc. Only micro "tends to" Flippant and Flaky.Only macro "tends to" Crazed Out.The trick is really balancing the two in your mind.
Should I sign you up for anger therapy too? might get a bulk discount.How come I dont know about the balloon trick?

unpredictable said...

QQ: thanks :) And the kinda therapy I need, is best left unsaid ... :)
Balloon trick: They say to let go, to really let go of something inside your being, you need to physically let go of something .. a balloon is easiest to handle in a situation like this coz it floats away ... hopefully taking sorrow/ anger/ hurt along ... I'm waiting till I reach absolute breaking point to exercise that option, until then, cribbing will work :D

Mahogany said...

QQ - your macro/micro comment is really insighthful. Go too macro and you lose touch with being human and fallible. Get stuck in micro, and eventually you give yourself a stroke. Switch back and forth and you can live and enjoy being alive at the same time.

Unpredictable - great, whimsical post!

unpredictable said...

Mahogany: Thanks :) Im on the rope right now .. balancing I mean .. and there's many others here looks like :)

GOD said...

(1) sometimes, what you want may not want you and you have to live with that.

(2) sometimes, you may not get some one's heart and soul, no matter how badly you want them to be a part of your life. Sometimes the best way to give someone happiness is to stay some distance away from them, no matter how hard it is for you.

(3) There is no such thing as karma.

(4) one cannot decide to not be angry. The best way to kill any such negative emotions is to think about the source of such feelings, think more about it, understand it, analyze it. Amazingly when you understand its source it vanishes.

(5) you are not going to be reborn in any meaningful sense of the term. so chill, you have only one life.

Penguin said...

Who are you, God? You slighsha rock!

Eastertide said...

Loved this post. It moved me enough to get off my ass and post this comment of appreciation

unpredictable said...

God: Would your comment have been different if you'd NOT left it anonymous? My answer would have.

Eastertide: Thanks! Its my hurting hand thats getting in the way of posting comments on the louly posts uve been writing lately. Not my laziness i promise!

god said...

I am sorry for my useless comment. Just a jobless guy who writes crap on arbit blogs. we dont know each other. very sorry if it looked preachy and shitty too. just my shallowness, joblessness and hypocracy coming out in the open once in a while.

very sorry again.



---unni

shobha said...

I think Karma does exist and just works. In whatever manner.Period. Call it by any other name and it still is. What goes around comes around. As you sow, so shall you reap.

Bottomline -it's about kindness. Karma says, don't be mean because all the mean-ness you send out today in any form will come back to bite you in the ... :) eventually.

Still searching said...

Wow, loved your post! Each and every paragraph has questioned such simple yet such important facts of all our lives... though ofcourse I can't even begin to answer these, at least the right questions have been asked!

Thanks for coming by my blog and wishing me! :)

unpredictable said...

:) Still searching: Thanks! :)

unpredictable said...

Unni/ God: Umm I didn't mean to make you say nasty things about yourself. Just saying, personally prefer replying to comments that are backed by a real person's name and in general find anon comments very cowardly. No judgement.

Shobha: :) I lou the point about kindness. Yeah it does boil down to that finally ... being a good person ... tough to do consistently despite how simple it sounds :)