Thursday, June 12, 2008

disconnected thoughts.. so many of them ..

- All the women I really like/ get along with are scarily like each other. All have tough exteriors that conceal how wonderfully loving they are on the inside.

- There's things inside your head that sometimes cannot be shared with ANYone. ANYone. Not quite the same as demons, but still little thoughts that constitute a significant chunk of who you are but cannot be shared. No particular reason. Just.

- Charolette's line in SATC "Everything's been so wonderful so far. Something bad is BOUND to happen no?" is one I fully identify with. Whenever I'm feeling unduly blessed, I have this crappy "What horrid thing awaits me around the corner" kinda attitude (which again, I don't share with anyone).

- While on SATC, Carrie's sprint across town to meet Miranda on new year's eve is something that totally touched my heart. I can safely say that this one thing in the movie caught my attention and stayed in my mind beyond all the sexy clothes and ring talk. It reminded me of the weekend I fell miserably ill and just landed up at the Penguin's place and lay in bed as she fed me and gave me my meds despite her own weekend plans. What would life be without people like this?

- Someone just pointed out how my professional/ academic life has always worked out as planned. And I realized after how I spent almost 10 years devoting attention, time and energy to planning and working towards it, and it ALONE, if it *hadn't* worked out that way, it would've been quite a let down and an antithesis to "God helps those who helps themselves". So is it any wonder it turned out how it did? And is it any wonder, hence, that the 1st relationship I ever had was when I was almost 25?

- There's this thing about confiding in people that needs a certain level of quid pro quo. If sharing is a one sided activity with none forthcoming from the other end, as much as I can indulge in non stop blabber, real sharing will dwindle over time. Does that happen to you as well?

- Happiness at work is such a huge function of happiness outside. Ever since this play thing gave me something to work towards and look forward to, my mindset at work has shifted significantly. Suddenly I'm more aware, involved and present than I have ever been after the 1st year. And the converse is true. My bluest times outside work have seen me go through mindless phases of no enthusiasm at work (Oh GOD so many people from work read this!!). Does that happen to you? Am I weird?

- There's something about being able to commit. To a project. To a person. There's something to be said of going through a tough tough badass situation with the said project/person and still wanting to have it/ them in your life with no dwindling of intent. I love that something whenever it comes to me. Love it.

12 comments:

Quirky Quill said...

Read the first point. Noted with delight.

unpredictable said...

Delight is appropriate. Let's continue to count down shall we? 13th ... 14th ...

PCube said...

Agree with every single thought! Especially the last.

Anonymous said...

:) i lou the last 2 points - it often makes the difference between great and fantastic people na?

_ shiv

Magic :) said...

Wonderful post......It almost felt like reading my own thoughts :)

unpredictable said...

Pccube: Hey V mentions you often!! :) Thanks for dropping by :)

Shiv: It SO does. FYI S is one of the women i refer to in point 1. Should tell her.

unpredictable said...

Magic: :) Thanks :) We think alike then!

PCube said...

mystic- think u got me for the wrong person :)

unpredictable said...

Pcube: did i? Oh .. sorry then! My friend RV is an Ex Delloite person ... so thought ur this friend he refers to often :) Good to have you visit anyway :)

PCube said...

Definitely not me..
I visit often because some of ur posts are uncannily similar to what im thinking/ going through at that point in time or have experienced in the past. Maybe its just quarter life crisis :)

unpredictable said...

Pcube: Hah! Quarter life wisdom is more like it no? :)

PCube said...

in hindsight, its always wisdom :)